If death meant just leaving the stage long enough to change costume and come back as a new character... Would you slow down? Or speed up?

Friday, October 23, 2009

A few months ago I found out that my 16-year-old cousin is pregnant. That is a reality that I am having a hard time accepting. I used to babysit this girl when I was only 12 or 13. She comes from many broken homes and never had anywhere to really call her own home. Her mom abandoned her and her brothers when she was only 6 weeks old. Her dad was in and out of her life and has a second wife that he used to try and replace her real mom. She has 2 older brothers that have both been preoccupied with their own lives that they haven't had a chance to look over their younger sister like so many people seem to think older brothers should do. I haven't personally spoken with my cousin for close to 6 years now up until about a month and a half ago. Looking back now after learning where she is in her life I wonder how we all failed her while being so close to her. Here she is; young, innocent, and very alone in a world of people that all claim to be there for her. She found a young boy that said that he would be there for her, he claimed that he was going to take away all the pain and hate. She was awestruck when she met him and who could blame her? Here was her chance to have all the wrongs that were done against her made right. Here was her chance to break out of her life and start something new for herself. He promised her all the things that a man can promise, problem is that he is just a boy. They had a good time one night and didnt think about the reprocutions of what they were doing. She was in a world without her brothers or her father. She didnt have the support system that she had always dreamed of. Then the unthinkable happened, or was it really unthinkable? Was it something that was never supposed to happen, or was this her final cry for help? Things went great for a few days after the news hit home, then he realized that he didnt have the balls to be a father. She wanted him to drop his world of childish ventures and he wasnt ready to give that up. He told her to move in with her dad and step mom, into a little RV that my cubicle at work is bigger than it seems like. He told her it would give her more oppurtunities and then he would follow. How many times can someone lie before they are caught for it?