Day 13: Goals

This post has been staring me in the face for a few days now… every once in a while I come to it and try to write something and then I end up deleting everything and walking away again. It has become a contest between me and this blank screen, and up until now I was losing drastically.

I have come to realize over the past few days that I don’t set goals for myself. I think it is because in the past I have set goals and then I don’t have the motivation to achieve them. It seems like motivation has always been a problem for me and I am not really sure why.

So my goal: is to finally set a goal and achieve it.

Day 12: Something you don't leave the house without

Day 11: Favorite tv shows

 

I love Pretty Little Liars. It is a show about four girls that are really good friends with a girl that went missing before the show started. A year after her disappearance is when we meet the girls and they are all getting these messages from someone named “A” that is blackmailing them and pretty much has it out for them. Of course the four girls band together as they are trying to figure out who this “A” person is. Of course secrets are uncovered and the only person that could know them is their friend that went missing that was found dead. Interesting right?

This is a pretty new show… there has only been 2 episodes but so far it is really good. It is about 3 young doctors that go to a clinic in South Africa to work there. They are getting used to not having all the modern day stuff like we do here in the US and they are having to find a way to work with the locals who mostly speak Spanish and don't always believe in modern medicine.

 

What more needs to be said about Glee? It is an amazing show that can evoke a lot of emotion out of me and I can’t wait for it to come back on.

This is a great show about vampires. There are 2 brothers that are both vampires and there is a girl that is not. The one brother (Stefan) goes back to Mystic Falls because he wants to meet the girl (Elena) because she looks just like his ex (Katherine, who turned both him and his brother to vampires) whom every vampire thinks is dead. Well after Stefan meets Elena and they start to talk, the brother (Damon) shows up to start causing mayhem. Then they find out that all the vampires in the world pretty much are after Elena because she looks just like Katherine who turns out to still be alive. So Stefan and Damon band together to protect Elena.

The Biggest Loser has definitely became my favorite show to watch. It is giving me so much motivation to finally start changing my life for the better. I love being able to watch the show and take the journey with each of the contestants and I find myself cheering them on and getting anxious each week when someone has to go home. I love that this show is on TV because it is proving that everyone can do what they want to, just have to have motivation and the drive.

Day 10: Something you're afraid of

fail·ure

[feyl-yer]  Show IPA–noun 1. an act or instance of failing or proving unsuccessful; lack of success: His effort ended in failure. The campaign was a failure. 2. nonperformance of something due, required, or expected: a failure to do what one has promised; a failure to appear.  3. a subnormal quantity or quality; an insufficiency: the failure of crops. 4. deterioration or decay, esp. of vigor, strength, etc.: The failure of her health made retirement necessary. 5. a condition of being bankrupt by reason of insolvency. 6. a becoming insolvent or bankrupt: the failure of a bank. 7. a person or thing that proves unsuccessful: He is a failure in his career. The cake is a failure.

Failure is my biggest fear. I am afraid that I will fail at life, afraid that I’ll fail at raising my child, afraid that I will fail at being a good wife to my husband. Sometimes I am not really sure what failure is. Who defines failure? Why does it seem to  always consume my life? I am so afraid sometimes that one wrong step will set me off on a downward tail spin to my end.

I pray every day that no matter what I wont fail, that my child wont suffer the consequences of my poor choices. I pray that my husband will be happy when he thinks about me and is happy that I am the one that he comes home to. These things haunt my dreams.

Day 9: A favorite picture of your best friend

My husband is by far my best friend. He is someone that I know will be there for me no matter what, even if I piss him off he wont turn his back on me.  We haven’t had the dream life, but we do live a dream together. When we met I was only 16 and he had just turned 20. When we met I told him “I never want to get married and I never want to have kids.” I had just been in a very turmoil relationship and was still trying to recover, I also hadn’t planned on being in a relationship.

When I fell for Coty, I fell hard. He had literally just got out of a relationship and I wasn’t sure that he would be ready for me. Well I was willing to take the risk and it paid out.

When we found out I was pregnant, it was the January after I turned 17 and only a short 7 months after we met. Everything was a whirlwind from there. We got married March 2008, he watched me walk for my high school graduation in June 2008 when I was 6 months pregnant, I turned 18 August 2008 and then our wonderful son was born September 2008.

It is so crazy to look back and see how far we have come. I could have never imagined this would be my life when I met him. I figured that it would just be one chapter in my life, but it is becoming so much more.

Day 8: A place you've traveled to

Thanks to the in-laws we were very blessed to be taken on a 7 day southern Caribbean Cruise last June. It was so much fun and definitely the best vacation I have ever been on. We left port from San Juan, Puerto Rico and had stops every day. We visited St. Thomas, Barbados, Dominica, St. Lucia, St. Kitts, St. Maarten. 

This is the bay that we were dropped off in after going snorkeling while at St. Kitts. The place that we went snorkeling is called Shittens Bay.

 

Here are some shots from the boat that we went snorkeling on

   

These are some pictures that I got while going on a tour of St. Lucia

This is us walking up the port of St. Kitts

This is the boat we were on for the cruise

Some pictures from St. Thomas after going on a ride to the top of a hill there.

Picture of the hill we went up in St. Thomas

Picture of Coty and me on the cruise ship

Coty and Jaime rocking out with the guys in Dominica

Day 7: Favorite movies